10 years ago after I suffered from Sudden Cardiac Arrest and was without oxygen for 11 minutes, I woke up from my medical induced coma with little visual side effects. I was able to breath, talk, and walk within my 11 day hospital stay. When I got home I would suddenly lose strength in my legs and arms after I woke up. When I talked to my doctor they sent me to a neurologist. After a few tests, I was told they didn't know what was wrong and since they couldn't do an MRI because I have an ICD there was nothing they could do.
Today my symptoms are worse. I still have times when my legs and arms lose strength and I can't move or talk. This usually occurs when I am a active. I walk like a drunkard. I can't balance or stand on one foot. I can't remember words and I use words in the wrong context. I have bipolar II which I did not have before. My short term memory is horrible. Just typing this is hard because I am forgetting words. Spell check is my friend. I went to the neurologist last week and he said that if these symptoms are from the brain damage there is nothing we can do. I have to go take an EEG to see how bad it is. I am only 36 and I am scared if this keeps getting worse what is going to happen to me. I tried to get disability but was denied after 10 months of waiting and paperwork. I don't have any test that proves I have these problems. I feel like I am fighting this invisible disability with no help.
I just want to be normal again and that will never happen. 10 years and I am still having trouble accepting that I can not do things like I use to. I feel useless because I can't work more than 12 hours a week or else I will faint or be bedridden. I am lost and worried. I just want to be better.