I have Type 3 LONG-QT Syndrome
Cardiac Arrest on January 17, 2012, January 21, 2016, January 20, 2018.
I had my third experience of cardiac arrest this year.
Of course I remember each Near-Death-Experience, but that is not what I am seeking here.
What keeps me seeking answers is during those three "precious and agonizing" minutes of consciousness
knowing that I am dying. When you know that you are dying, that this last moment of making
sense of what is happening and saying to myself that "I am Ready" each time is the good part. I never lose consciousness
until my three minutes are up. Yet It is the suffocating that is worse than the cardiac death. I beg God to hurry up and let me go unconscious to stop the agony. Then I black out and spontaneously wake in the ambulance consciously aware of the events later.
I have changed so much in my life, behavior and awareness. I now refuse all material related assumptions of happiness.