This experience has left me feeling like I don't belong here. I suffered sca on December 7, 2009. I am only 32 years old. A week prior to this happening ro me my cousin Jason who was 29 died of SCA he was not lucky like me. I arrested a total of 5 times that day with hours in between. I was in a coma, they used a baloon inside my heart to help, they used the hypothermia therapy on me to hope I didn't have much brain damage with as long as I was down. I have a ICD placed now. Everyone who was involved the drs, nurses, ambulance personel all say I am a miracle to be here. The drs told my family i would not make it the next 48 hours. When I made it after that they then told my family thay I may never wake up or if I did I would be needing long term nursing care. Well almost a week after everything I WOKE UP, the doctors were amazed that I was ok. Some things are a little fuzzy still. The worse thing is these feelings. I mean i just can't shake it. I feel out of sorts with everything. Has anyone else felt this way after having this happen. Did anyone experience anything when they were dead before being brought back? How are you dealing with that if you did having problems there to afraid people will think I am crazy. A;so dealing with why I was so lucky and my cousin wasn't just so many unanswered questions. Please help
To save one life is as if to save the world.
Hard time dealing with what happened to me
Submitted by smmurphy77 on Fri, 01/08/2010 - 6:58am
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Help in understanding what happened and why
You are now a member of a special family - surviving SCA is not as common as it could/should be.
My wife suffered a cardiac arrest six weeks after our wedding. SHe survived despite over 30mins without a pulse!
It was such a traumatic and miraculous story that I wrote a book about it.
Called "A Heart Too Good to Die: A shocking story of Sudden Cardiac Arrest" it is available at all book retailers (Amazon etc, plus there's a link to it at the bottom of this website homepage)
She had many emotional episodes, whenever she remembered what happened, and struggled to understand why. She is often reminded of her ICD (especially the "bump") and sometimes resents it's presence.
It took a few years for this to fade, unlike the scar which faded in just a few weeks. The battery is now nearing it's end and she needs a replacement, so we will again go through the heartache of having another " shocking little computer implanted in her chest; ready to go off at any instant."
We try to remember that it is a life saving device, and to quote my book;
"The lesson we have learned is; cherish life, and your relationships. There may be a moment when you regret not savoring the life you have now and the love you give and receive. Humans are so resilient and adaptable, that it is easy to forget how fragile we are."
Jeremy